What did I miss .........

It was just another morning and I had plans. I had big plans for my day ahead in office. I had gone over them again and again the previous night and today morning. I was so pleased with my meticulous planning that I patted myself on my back more than once. I walked out of my apartment with a smile on my face that would envy almost any one joining the morning rush hour traffic. Just as I crossed the lawn, I saw the same little girl again. She was sitting near the gate staring at me. Those eyes were looking for an answer. An answer that I should have given her weeks ago. She calls me Bhaiya. It was her birthday 3 weeks ago and this Bhaiya had promised her a doll that she had seen on TV. But somehow Bhaiya never managed to remember his promise to a little girl. I avoided her gaze and rushed through the gate, afraid if the little girl reminded Bhaiya of his promise the meticulous planner Bhaiya would not have an answer. I kicked myself for the umteenth time and promised myself not to forget my earlier promise today evening. 

As you would have guessed, I didn't remember the promise that I had so shamelessly made the same morning. As I entered my appartment building, I noticed my watchman was missing from his usual place. I thought, thats strange. I don't remember seeing that happening. As I entered my house my roommate told me the little girl was not well. She was in hospital. It felt as if a boulder had hit me. She was the watchman's daughter. I rushed to the hospital where the doctors told me she was undergoing surgery but she may not make it. This was so unreal. I couldn't believe this was happening. That beautiful smile, those innocent eyes, that comforting voice......all would be gone. I felt so helpless. There was nothing I could do. My forgotton promise came back to haunt me. If only I had remembered her doll.......if only I wasn't to busy in planning my tomorrow.......if only I had taken time and relish the joy of today.....there were so many "if onlys".....I rushed to get her doll. When I came back, I could see my watchman crying. My worst fears has come true. She was gone.......God...Why......Honey I got your doll.....those little eyes had closed for ever. I was left asking myself, "What did I miss.......?".